Finally healing,,,,,,,,,

actually Dr Fee wanted to take the stitches out today,,,,but I was hesitant,,,,it is still oozing some and a gape in the center,,,,maybe another week will do it,,,so Dr Fee said that would be fine,,,so hopefully,,,next Monday stitches will come out. I see Dr David Shadowen on Thursday and we will find out about the uric acid with the gout and find out how we are going to treat it,,,,interesting,,,,,,,He always checks this and it has always been fine,,,that why I am sooo surprised!!
I saw Dr Young today also and he was really surprised that it was gout!! I said, I was too!!! We went over my blood work and ,,,,,only a little bit worse,,,,not significantly changed,,,,no better,,,looks like I am heading downhill,,platelets were 62,,,which is low,,he doesn't want them to get under 50,,,,,,,and at 30 we will do transfusions,,,oboy!...So I do blood work every month, and see him back in January unless there are changes....I told him about the pains in the spleen before I did the antibiotics,,,but that they had went away since taking them. Which he has already mentioned taking out the spleen,,,,but I said no,,,,,,,,,not right now,,,,not with the swine flu going around,,,I need all the defences I can get,,,,,which He also advised against the swine flu shot,,,since it is a live virus,,,,,,,maybe not set well with me,,,,,fortunate for me I have no respiratory problems, not a smoker ,,,,,so,, good lungs would help me there.....just keep washing those hands,,(and shopping carts,,,I feel silly washing it down, when I go into a store,,,but think about it,,,,the germs on the handles,,,little kids touching chewing,,,,spitting up on it,,,people sneezing and touching it, coughing,,,GERMY FOR SURE!!) I'm hanging in there,,,,even though it wouldn't hurt my feelings none if God called me home,,,,Life is getting where it is no fun,,,hard to keep a smile and put on a front....I used to be really good at it,,,,I'm slipping,,,,,,,,,or maybe it's just getting old. But don't worry about me,,,,,,I'll do better tomorrow,,,maybe it's the rain,,,,,,,,I've been staying in alot due to all the sickness and flu,,,maybe it is getting to me,,,,(♪♫ Help won't help tomorrow, if you give up today, just hold on a little longer, help is on the way!♪♫) Love you guys ♥,,,thanks for
the vent!

The Biopsy said,,,,,,,

it was "Tophaceous Gout". Whew,,,,thought it was going to be something worse,,,,,,so I guess gout is a "good" thing. Not sure of what or how we are going to treat it,,,I go back next week for possibly removing the sutures,,,not ready today,, and I guess we will go from there. Huh,,,,,,gout,,,who would of thought? He did tell me there was nothing I could have done for it,,,caused by my DNA,,,I told him my Mom had gouty arthritis,,,(she suffered terribly from it) and he said that I had inherited it,,(nice). So,,,,,,till next week,,,,,,,Don't know if he wants me to see a arthritis Dr or what,,,,guess he will tell me next week,,,,,,,My toe looks nothing like my Moms though,,,no fever in it, no redness,,,,a whole lot different then Mom's,,,,maybe it won't get bad like hers.......just alot of pain, especially at night,,,,,,we'll see.

Rain, Rain, go away,,,,,,,

Do you think we need to built an Ark? We sure have been blessed with abundance of rain this year,,,the pond outside is full again. usually in the summer it gets pretty low (due to a leak and the dry weather) but not this year. Right now it is going out the spillway.

I see alot of people are reading along, so glad to have you along. Please feel to talk to me sometime or e-mail me and I will try to answer,,,,I'm glad I have this place to vent. Tomorrow is my Drs appointment with Dr Fee,,,we'll finally hear from the biopsy,,,,,I thought about canceling,,,,,not sure if I want to know or not,,,,,,I'm chicken x?#! The toe I think is doing well,,,looks very gross,,,but there is no fever in it and color is good,,,and no pain meds for several days now. Glad to be off those things,,,they gave me nightmares,,,,but the pain was very bad....but don't know which was worse,,,nightmares or pain. Still have to wear the "boot" for the toe,,,can't stand a shoe,,,maybe when the sutures are sniped, I can wear a shoe. We have church this weekend, would be nice to wear a shoe but I kinda doubt it. Let you know what the Dr said soon.

Grandparents Day!!! ♥

Here is a picture of Jacob, my second grandson, and both of his grandma's at school when they had "Grandparents Day"! This is where (of course) all grandparents could come and eat lunch with their grandchildren. What a fun time we had, and a special day for Jacob! Don't you think he favors me just a "little bit"?

Want to see a picture of me?

I ran across this picture a few days ago and thought it would be interesting to share on my blog. This is a picture of me when I was about 6 years old,,,maybe not even that old,,,but I was always very tiny,,,,so looks could be deceiving here. I may be 6, but not look it. But I would say I am six,,,because 6 was always a special age in our family,,,usually it meant you were old enough to start school,,(oboy!). I remember Mom and Dad driving to down town Louisville on this day(I grew up in the big city) to a photographer there (we had very few photographer pictures in growing up,,,,there just wasn't money for this,,,,a family of 7,,,,,money goes for more serious means). I remember my dress was pale yellow with white lace,,,,we had a station wagon,,,(I wonder why,,,,with a family of seven!!) at that time cars didn't have air conditioning,,,,,so the windows were down,,,,,my hair was wind blown,,,,and nobody had a comb! Mom was using her fingers to try and comb through my hair to tame it down some,,,had some "natural curl" to it, don't you think? This was "many moons" ago,,,,in January I will be 60,,,,,,times sure does fly by..............

Part of the toe is gone,,,,,,,,

well, the biopsy was Thursday,,,,,and Dr Fee took the part of the toe that had the infection and bones missing,,,,,,ouch!!!! It has been a very painful process,,,,surgery didn't take but about 30 minutes,,,they did put me out,,,and sent off the biopsy,,,which I won't know anything until I go back next Friday, mainly because Dr Fee is going on fall break with his boys,,,,,,but they will also do a culture on the type of infection,,,which takes 2 or 3 days....so,,,,,,Thanks to everyone who remembered me, called and even thought of me........Also a big thanks to Jonathan, my 3rd born son,,,who took me and stayed with me and then took me home with him, fed me and tried his best to take care of me,,,but I made him take me home later so I could sleep in my own bed. The night happened to be very rough and I would have kept him awake and he had to work the next day. The pain pills have not agreed with me,,,,was doing pretty good until today and had to change the dressing,,,,,,,,wow,,,,,,,talk about pain,,,,the blood had dried and the dressing was stuck to the site,,,,ouch!!!! I hadn't taken any pain meds for about 7 hours and didn't need them,,,,,,well,, I immediately took 2 and soaked the foot,,, waiting for it to become un-attached,,,,well I soaked for over an hour,,,and I thought the meds weren't working,,,,still painful,,,,,,,after working on it for about 2 hours,,,finally got the dressing of (with alot of yelping and squirming on the bed) and re-dressed again,,,,I have since changed the dressing twice,,,not going to let it get stuck again,,,,,and I poured the anti-biotic cream to it........I believe I am on the mend now,,,just will take a few more days,,,,,,getting a little tired of laying in the bed,,,,when I get up it starts to bleed some,,,,,,be glad when Friday gets here to find out what it is. The Dr said it had a milky-white substance in it,,,,and he thought it looked like gout..Now I know and have seen gout,,,,,my mom had gouty arthritis,,,,very, very painful and debilitating,,,,very!!! I, personally don't think that it what it is,,,,but then I am not the Dr.,,,,, Going to stay, mostly in the bed and let it heal,,,stay in and away from the H1N1 flu and hopefully by next weekend I will be A-okay.

Happy Birthday Jason,,,,will be 34 tomorrow,,,my first born son. My kids do alot for me,,,,just don't know what I would do without them,,,Love them